Create a tribe, become a lobbyist or engage in metapolitics? 

Some of the people I admire most are the ones who totally rejects modern society altogether. They go out into the woods, and with their own sweat, blood and determination they create something new and unique beyond stiff conservative ideas and postmodern illusions. Anyone can adopt a set of ideas and thus “become part of a movement”, but to create something in the real world that both defies modernity and that is able to carry the weight of a whole tribe, it doesn’t just require ingenuity, it takes grit, discipline and organization. The wolves of Vinland and operation werewolf is the best example I know of this. 

I also believe that tribalism is something more rooted in human psyche, much more than globalism, occidentalism or even nationalism. And no matter If we live in a society based on the free market or in a socialist regime, in our hearts our loyalty will always remain around our family, close friends and the local community, all that is much closer to a tribe than anything else. 

Like Jack Donovan points out in his book “the way of men” even incredibly large organizations like the US-army are built on many much smaller units – bands of brothers, units that are small enough to create the kind of loyalty that can stand the test of situations revolving around life and death, but still big enough to carry itself like an organization in and of itself. A tribe is small enough so you don’t have to pretend to care about every single member of it, but it is still big enough to run a small society, city or municipality. 

Cast a vote without relying on it. 

I wholeheartedly embrace tribalism as a worldview, however I don’t exclude that I am, no matter If I like it or not, entangled in processes and interests that go beyond or outside the tribal ones. And it doesn’t cost me much to cast a vote every four years on a party that atleast pay lipservice to the interests of my people and that in some small way can halt or at least slowdown the displacement of my kind. So that just maybe my children wont have to grow up as a hated minority in what used to be their native homelands. I now have children in Sweden and Italy, countries that are both besieged by cultural marxism and its symptoms of open borders and ethnomasochism.

Metapolitics in practice. 

But on the arena of ethnic struggles I realize that what matters most in the long run is not partypolitics but metapolitics and culture. Therefor in my own small way I try to contribute in any way I can to the cultural struggle, by writing about culture in a pro-European perspective on my blogs in Swedish, English and soon also in Italian. By teaching my children about the their true history beyond the simplified and often falsified versions of Hollywood, and most important of all through leading by example in the best of my abilities by demonstrating a life of pride, strength and purpose. Except for this I hope to be able to create something resembling an authentic tribe as well, or atleast join one, after all, one thing doesn’t have to exclude another. 

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What spirituality is, beyond religion, new age and Harry Potter .

The best definition of spirituality I’ve seen is from an old Swedish lexicon where it says “spirituality is nature in its higher development”. What this mean is, that when we look beyond the basics of nature and natural needs, we are confronted with questions that deal with things like transcendence. Questions like “what is the meaning with my life”, “is there more to reality than what we can see or measure with science”, and so on. 

When people hear the word “spiritual” they often think of it in three frameworks. Either they think about it in the context of the rigid compounds of various religions, they think about it in the ridiculous style of Hollywood like with Harry Potter and similar movies, or they think about westerners LARPing as Indians, trying to summon some other peoples ancestors, or taking pictures of their auras in some newage-store. Im not saying that there isnt spiritual elements in these examples, but I believe there are much more tangible examples.

Beauty.

One of my favorite modern books of philosophy is “Why Beauty Matter” by Roger Scrutton. In this book he argues that beauty is not something subjective but a form of truth. Beauty is something most sane people can identify in a classic painting, in a flower or a majestic mountain. Science have proven that classical music can improve our thinking and even improve the health of plants. But why is this? Nature could might as well have made things we consider ugly to be beneficial and pleasing to us. 

Many times beauty has no practical value to our lives, but still we value it so much. Beauty seem to be one of those aspects of our world that point to a higher truth of our existence. Therefor I consider, appreciating and to be grateful for the beauty in our life a spiritual practice. The french writer, and I would argue, philosopher Marcel Proust, once said that if he had one day left to live, he would spend it appreciating art, nature and beautiful women among other things, that is to me a spiritual approach to life and death. 

Wonder and awe. 

I don’t know if other animals experience wonder or awe, but none the less, I consider it to be another transcendent (spiritual) experience. When we ponder the wastness of the universe and the infinity of time and space, we can be filled with a feeling of wonder. Or when we visit the ancient cave paintings in France, and gaze upon some of the oldest artwork of our people, I think most of us are filled with a sense of awe. Again, these are feelings that seem to have nothing to do with our basic human needs. 

The longing to, and sense of wonder toward, what is beyond our comprehension is what some call our Faustian spirit, that seem to be especially prevalent in Western peoples, is one of our most tangible experiences we can have of a higher spiritual realm. Therefor I believe that another spiritual practice would be trying to find as many experiences that result in a sense of awe and wonder as possible. To lay in a field at night and gaze upon the stars, to visit a local rune stone and consider the amazing link between yourself and your ancestors, or if you wish to be more active; to skydive, climb a high mountain or try to live self-sufficient in nature for a longer period of time. 

Sacrifice.

I think it was the philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer who were one of the more prevalent latest thinkers, in pointing to the transcendent meaning of sacrifice. An atheist like Richard Dawkins would explain most humans sacrifices for others as a biological trait for the survival of our genes, and there is a point in that. But since humans have the ability to reflect before we take decisions we can always take in consideration, the atheist belief, that we will never experience any benefit of making something that only will help those who will come into this earth after we are gone, but still so many do this. 

Why do so many people get upset about decisions that will not have any affect on us while we are still alive? Is this only a biologically inclined gut-reaction? I don’t think even the atheists believe this, they would propably point toward their good consciousness as their main reason. But why would anyone sacrifice their reputation, their standard of life, or even their own life to secure a good life for those who will live when we are gone? Joseph Campbell pointed out in his “The power of myth” that most of the social activists he met among his students seemed to have a more transcendent view of life then most religious people. 

I believe that deep down we all have a sense that this life on earth is not all there is. We don’t know how or why, but somehow we are connected to those who have gone before us, and those who will come after us, and this might be the strongest and most tangible connection we have to spirituality. So my final suggestion to practice your spirituality is to remember and celebrate your ancestors as much as possible. And another way is to do something that in someway will contribute to our descendants, because like the former leader of Asatru Folk Assembly says “We are all ancestors in training”. 

Mindfulness in the age of Kali Yuga 

One of the great challenges of our time, especially for men of European descent, is being able to handle the impending decline of the Western world. I used the word Kali Yuga to describe this period we are living in, because I believe, like the Hindus (and before them the Indo-Europeans) that history moves in cycles, where Kali Yuga represent the end of the highest period in the natural cycles of birth, life and death of civilizations. 

The reason that most empires in time will experience an inevitable decline or a total disintegration is best described by Oswald Spengler in “the decline of the west”. To understand why his theories about the rise and fall of civilizations is more important to us now than ever before, I would like to promote a recent article by the scholar Ricardo Duchesne on Counter Currents “There Is Nothing the alt-right Can Do about the Effeminacy of White Men”. 

This article is not about why, but how, to handle the coming and current distasters.

But the subject of this article is not about why the west is falling, but about how to handle it. I write about this now because I find this to be one of the biggest challenges in my life right now. Another big challenge for me in recent years, have been to handle the mental strains of post-traumatic stress, anxiety and various life-threatening health-conditions. The most valuable concept for me to handle all of this have been mindfulness, and in this I include various forms of meditations from zazen to hatha-yoga and just simple consciousness breathing, I have even studied deep Christian meditation. 

I was at first reluctant to use the term mindfulness, since it have become a modern buzzword marketed to middle-age women who wish to try, what they perceive to be, some exotic method for handling their menopause. But mindful living is a philosophy that has been at the center of some of the most respected warriors, spiritual teachers and even emperors, to handle some of the greatest challenges a man can face. From Siddhartha Gautama who was a Kshatrya (the Indo-European warrior caste), to one of the greatest roman emperors Marcus Aurelius (who wrote meditations), to the Catholic monk and highly influential spiritual teacher Meister Eckhart. 

Mindful living has been at the center in the lives of European and Western warriors and thinkers through most of our known history. 

Mindfulness is a vast concept in and of itself, and can be viewed through the lenses of various traditions, or even from an atheist perspective. But I would argue that acceptance is a Key concept no matter from what angle you wish to view this. The concept of acceptance is best summoned up in the following words by Epictetus:

”Make the best use of what is in your power, and take the rest as it happens. Some things are up to us, and some things are not up to us. Our opinions are up to us, and our impulses, desires, aversions—in short, whatever is our own doing. Our bodies are not up to us, nor are our possessions, our reputations, or our public offices, or, that is, whatever is not our own doing.”

Or in the Christian serenity prayer: 

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can,

And wisdom to know the difference.

Or if you prefer from the buddhist scholar Shantideva:

If there’s a remedy when trouble strikes,

What reason is there for dejection?

And if there is no help for it,

What use is there in being glum?

Acceptance in this context is not about giving up or being passive, its about seeing reality as it is and to act upon it with calm and focus. Ruminating on what you perceive is bad doesn’t change anything, this is especially true for such an enormous cataclysm like the decline of the west. No Facebook posts, no tweet or Instagram-post is going to stop the borders from falling while our rulers are more concerned about building bathrooms for trannies. Like the verse says “emperor Nero is playing violin while Rome is burning”. 

Being present is not an excuse to act like an idiot. 

Mindfulness is about being present and to act in the now. Also these words have been misinterpreted by modern pundits and self-help gurus to promote hedonism; have a beer, smoke cigarettes, screw around, why worry about tomorrow? Being present is not an excuse for acting like an idiot, you can still choose (and you should) to act in a way that will be beneficial for you, your family and your tribe in the long term. But when you have taken the necessary precautions in the present, there are no reason to ruminate about awful things that happened in the past, or to ruminate about potential future dangers. Learn from the past, plan for the future – live and act now!

When the Buddha states in the first of the four noble truths that “life is suffering”, it is not a statement of pessimism or defeatism, it is a precursor to the statement that “there is an end to suffering” which solution according to the Buddha is the eight-fold path, which I wont go into here. But one of the first and most important steps you can take to relieve yourself of unnecessary suffering which is mostly psychological pain, is to accept that pain is an unavoidable part of life. When you accept this there is no need to ad additional pain to this by ruminating on how “unfair” the world is to you.

We didn’t perish then and we wont perish now.

This is also true on a larger scale for your tribe, nation and the whole Western world. What we are experiencing now is nothing new, from ancient India to ancient Greece and the Roman empire, our civilizations have disintegrated from within many times before, this time its just happening on a larger scale, in a high-tech society and arguably in a faster pace than ever before, but none the less, I believe there is some small comfort to know that our ancestors have experienced similar circumstances in the past, and to know that we didn’t perish then, and I believe we wont perish now either. If we stay strong, stay present and can act with clear focused minds. 

The best tool to become more mindful is meditation. For most people this word bring their minds to the far East, but the word meditation is a Greek word, that simply means to and reflect upon something “I will meditate on this”. And as I have described in this article meditation have been a well used tool in mindful living in our peoples history for thousands of years, this is not a foreign concept or a modern trend. 

Different types of meditation and recommended litterature. 

My preferred type of meditation is zazen from the Zen Buddhist tradition. Zazen just means “to sit” and has a lot of focus on posture, breathing, and you meditate with your eyes open. If you are a Christian; most churches at least here in Sweden and in Italy (these are the countries I have been living in mostly), offer free courses in deep-meditation. For atheists or agnostics there is TM (Transcendental Meditation) which is the most scientifically based form of meditation and completely free from religious and spiritual influences. But whatever you do make sure that you get proper guidance in your efforts, there are a lot of fakes out there, anyone who promises quick results or magic abilities is probably a phony. 

I would also like to recommend following books on the subject: The power of now by Eckhart Tolle is a great gateway drug so to speak. Three pillars of Zen by Philip Kapleau, From who God hid nothing by Meister Eckhart, Where ever you go there you are by Jon Kabat-zin, just to name a few. 

However we choose to deal with the current perils of our time, we should lead by example and I believe that a calm and focused approach is the most important foundation for your action no matter what path you will take, mindfulness can take you there. 

9 lessons from the real Vikings

 

I am actually quite grateful for the show Vikings, it is well made, funny and can make young people of Nordic and Germanic descent to become more interested in their own history and heritage. However there are still many blatant lies in the show about my ancestors that is easily refuted by studying real history books, anthropology and the writings from that time.

In the show the Vikings seem to be drunk most of the time, but real Vikings actually despised people who couldn’t control their drinking. In the show the Vikings are extremely promiscuous, bisexual and degenerates, there is no basis for saying that they behaved this way, but we know that infidelity among women were punished by death and that they valued blood ties above anything. But I will touch more on this later.

First I will say that I never identified as Viking since this is just one short period of my peoples history, I think very few Christians identify as crusaders and very few Japanese people identify as Samurai. But still I believe there are many great lessons we as Norsemen can extract from this period of our history that is more relevant for our people today than ever before.

1. Be a trader

The Vikings were great conquerors and warriors, but their greatest accomplishments to gain territory and power were actually in trade. At centers of Viking trade in the north they have found artifacts like spices, art and tools from the middle-east, Greece and even from the furthest parts of Asia. Of course it didn’t Hurt that they could back up their trade-deals with the most feared and fearless warriors of their time, but they had an even greater advantage with their amazing boats that could travel further than any other people at that time. So maybe Donald Trump is so great at making deals because of his German blood and that if you wish to be Viking you should start by reading his book “The art of the deal”.

2. Eat and drink in moderation. 

If you read the old poetic Edda as well as ancient Nordic sagas it becomes very clear that no one respected people who were fat or who drank to much. The collection of wisdom from the Vikings “The Havamal” talks more about the importance of not drinking to much than about almost anything else. The old tales and sayings makes fun of people who eat and drink excessively and warns anyone to trust or make deals with them.

3. Be generous. 

The most common theme in the writings on the rune stones that were raised in memory of the dead doesn’t talk about wealth, how much land they owned or about how many people they slept with (things we seem to value today). The one thing they seemed to have wanted to be remembered by was their generosity. I want to clarify that generosity here doesn’t refer to paying taxes or sending money abroad, but about giving food and shelter to travelers who happened to come by their house while traveling.

4. Keep your word. 

The second most common theme on the rune stones is keeping your word. In the television show Vikings people are lying left and right about everything. If someone couldn’t be trusted in the tribe they were a liability for their whole community and when winter came and everyone had to share their resources they had to be able to trust each other. To make an oath was not like making a new years resolution today. Making an oath was seen as something as serious as life and death, to brake an oath could be punished by death and even worse – by the gods.

5. Value art and poetry 

When the tv-show Vikings showed the Nordic warriors with elaborate haircuts and tattoos  many screamed that this was inaccurate, but this is actually one of the aspects of the show that point more to the truth than any many other details in their depictions. The Vikings did use pretty advanced tools for cutting and trimming their hairs and beards which have been shown in findings of old Viking villages. And the Vikings did sometimes have tattoos which have been shown by remnants from old Viking burial site. The Vikings also created astonishing art and handcraft.

Most of what we know from our Nordic ancestors culture and worldview come from poetic depictions like in the older Edda. One of their highest aspirations were to be remembered, like it says in the Edda “the fame of a dead mans deeds”, and the way they were remembered was in stories and poetry. So the bard and the poet was valued very high in the tribe, and like people today gather around the television to be fed mostly bullshit, in the past we used to gather around the fire to listen to the poets and storytellers to hear tales of our ancestors and the gods.

6. Be a free man, a Karl.

The Vikings had their own cast system that had divine origin (read Rigstula) the lowest were the thrall, they were the one who works for others on a farm or as servants, todays equivalent would be the wage slave. They were not like the untouchables in the Indian cast-system but they were not considered free men either. The cast above the thrall were the Karl. The Karl were someone who owned their own land and or their own enterprise. You at least had to be a Karl to go Viking, that is to go on raids or trade abroad. Above the Karls were the Jarl, they were similar to the nobles and could be vassals of the King. The King or Könge is ofcourse the highest cast.

7. Be courageous, go to paradise. 

The gods of the Vikings the Aesir and Vanir were not like the God of the Abrahamitic religions of Judaism, Christianity and Islam. They were not necessarily fair, omnipotent or even good, and they rarely if ever intervened in the life of humans. Of course the Vikings sacrificed to the gods but they didn’t expect them to reciprocate. The gods are like nature, like the daring sea, like wind, thunder and earthquakes, they could be gentle or ruthless and they rarely knew why.

The biggest hope for the Vikings to reach paradise – Valhalla, was to die in battle and be recognized by the gods so that a Valkyrie would come and lead them to the realm of the gods. When being brave is your highest virtue its easy to see why the Vikings were so successful in most of their endeavors. If you stand in front of a choice in business, love or war, and you knew that the only way to reach paradise and be remembered by your kin is by being brave, to decide the right action becomes much easier – what is the bravest thing to do!

8. Put family first.

In movies and television they like to portray the Vikings as frivolous and degenerates who spends most of their free time screwing around with anyone and everyone, that they would share their women with eachother and even with men from other continents. They also stab their own relatives and brothers in the back on a consistent basis. None of this is or was typical for our Nordic ancestors. Women who were found guilty of infidelity were punished by death, and men who betrayed their own blood were considered the lowest of all criminals and would most certainly be entitled Varg I Veum that is to be outlawed and could therefor legally be killed by anyone without repercussions.

They also believed that their ancestors could be reborn within their linage and therefor they used to give newborns the name of deceased relatives. Just like we can today (if we stay true to our blood that is) see the faces, characteristics, colors and abilities of our passed away relatives and of ourselves in our children, so could they.

There are theories that the earliest humans couldn’t understand the connection between sex and children, but the Vikings definitely did and they also to a certain extent could understand the concept of evolution which again is reflected in the sacred Rigstula were its described how Heimdall created the different casts by visiting the humans every new generation and had sex with their women to make every new generation more able, noble and refined. That Vikings then should have risked to have a bastard offspring by letting their women sleep around is a ridiculous idea.

9. Build a legacy. 

In lesson number five I mention a verse in the poem Havamal that stood out among the others, it goes like this;

Cattle die, | and kinsmen die, And so one dies one’s self; One thing now | that never dies, The fame of a dead man’s deeds

Our ancestors believed like many other peoples that the life we live here on earth reflects the life in the next, that is why most Vikings were buried with weapons and riches and in some cases even with their wife or wives that sacrificed themselves so that they could join their men in afterlife.

But if even if you didn’t know for sure that the stories about the gods or Valhalla were true, you could be certain that people would remember you if you lived a noble and courageous life. Maybe you who reads this don’t believe in the gods and stories of your ancestors, but you can be certain that you will live on through your children and by the stories about you if you lived a life worth remembering.

Don’t postpone fighting!

 


When I was in elementary school and even before that, me and many of my peers were being bullied by the stronger kids, especially the older ones. When my parents found out they contacted the other parents and my school to make them lecture my tormentors, needless to say it led to me being bullied and beaten even more severely for many more years. Instead another classmate of mine didn’t have parents that was so “caring” so he had to figure out how to solve the problem with the bullies himself.

So one day before class we were gathered outside the school, my friend just walked up to one of the fat older bullies and without a warning pushed him to the ground and started pounding his face in. The fat bully screamed for help but his bullying friends just watched it happen with awe. My friend ended the beating with the words “if you even breath around me I will beat you to death you fat peace of shit”. The bullies never bothered my friend again, his self-esteem went up along with his grades, training results and ability to ask girls out. I believe that this became a rite of passage for him.

For me it would take another two years of bullying and getting my ass kicked before I had another “rite of passage” when me and a friend borrowed his older brothers motorcycle and tried to run away from the cops. At that time I was too young to get any penalty by the police but I earned the respect from my older peers and were left in peace, at least for a few years before I entered a multicultural gymnasium, but that is another story.

The point with this anecdote is that my parents with all well-meaning did me a great disservice by not teaching me that bullying and fighting is a part of life and that the earlier you start to fight back the stronger you will be mentally and you will gain peace enough to focus on other pursuits and the self-esteem to accept other challenges of life. My friend who beat up the bully told me a decade later that he is grateful that he got his ass beaten so early and so hard that it made him toughen up and grow up much earlier than the other guys in our class, many of them are still pussies to this day.

Now I am in my mid-thirties and just recently I started developing the grit and toughness I needed more than twenty years ago, but better late than never, I am just glad that I didn’t wake up to this realization on my deathbed knowing that I wasted my whole life playing it safe. My father grew up with a extremely mean father, bullying and poverty, his parents died when he was still a kid so he had to grow up very fast to work two jobs and study at night to be able to support his other siblings.

So to compensate for his hard upbringing he instead showered me and my brother with gifts, safety and all the candy we could eat. He still thought me many good lessons and he could be very strict, but he didn’t realize that the fact that he had managed to become an accomplished athlete, a grade A student, win the hearth of a model, become one of the greatest programmers in the country and build his own company was because of his tough upbringing not despite of it. At the end of January I will have a son and I will not make the same mistake with him. I am not saying I will become a mean tyrant to make him tough, but I will be honest with him about the real conditions of life.

I hate bullies, but the truth is that bullying is a natural part of life (even though it can be taken to far of course). Bullying exists with most species in nature where the weakest often get picked, clawed or smashed to death or just left behind which often is even worse in the wild. Bullying and fighting is also a way to establish hierarchies, even among bullies there is a picking order. I am not encouraging bullying, but at least a healthy dose of shaming, name-calling and subduing is necessary. For most of our existence until very recently this was a matter of life and death. Because if you choose people who didn’t measure up to protect your borders, to hunt or raid an enemy village, just one weak link that tries to flee from combat could crush the morality of your peers and encourage the enemy to wipe all of you out. So stop postpone the unavoidable, learn how to fight and get down to business!

Being precent or living in the moment? 

Last week I burned my hand quite severely. It was an accident while cooking, I was tired, stressed, I was suffering from the flu, and I tried to do several things at once. The pain was immense but it was entirely my own fault, I wasn’t present enough to notice that I hadn’t turned of the stove. However painful it can seem to have an accident like this, it is nothing compared to the suffering caused by not being present in the long term. Let me explain.

Going to McDonalds can actually be quite a pleasurable experience, if your very hungry and not aware of the crap they put in their “food”. But if you go to McDonald’s everyday for maybe ten years and you start to suffer from diabetes and a high blood pressure as a result of it, it is actually the long term equivalence of me burning my hand on the stove. Because you weren’t aware of the long-term consequences of what you were eating in the present everyday for a long time, you caused yourself a lot of pain and possibly permanent damage to your health.

The false understanding of living in the moment. 

Today the concept of living in the moment have been commercialized and perverted beyond recognition. Now there are ads on television with modern-looking youngsters eating candy with a reassuring background voice saying “be in the moment”. You can hear some fat fuck at the bar telling his friend “hey man have another beer you gotta live in the moment” and so on. To be present does not equate with living frivolously. To be present is to be aware of cause and reaction as well as being attentive to what’s going on around you.

This concept is as stupid as the modern concept of YOLO (you only live once), I have heard people justify taking drugs with this motivation. Yes you only live once, so why not try to live as long and be as capable as possible so you can feel content with your life the day you will have to face the prospect of death.

Mindfulness means conscious presence. 

The concept of mindfulness have become very popular today with courses in mindful cooking, mindful sex, mindful studying and so on. In Swedish mindfulness have been translated into “Medveten närvaro” which means “conscious presence”. I prefer this term since it refers to its original meaning. If your really practicing Mindfulness on a consistent basis you don’t need special courses in mindful gardening, mindful masturbation or whatever, because you are trying to be mindful in everything.

The concept of mindfulness comes from Buddhism even if we can find similar techniques in Stoicism. Unlike what many people believe the Buddha did not mainly propose that his followers should meditate a few hours per day and then just go about the rest of their days mindlessly, he thought his students that their whole day should be a meditation. He told his students that they should meditate while walking, eating, having sex (if they werent monks) and even while taking a crap. To live in the present, to be mindful in its original context means to be aware of the realities of life, the laws of nature and most of all of death.

So be aware that life consists of the moment, that is all you have. Don’t numb yourselves with drugs or alkohol or television, that is not being in the moment that’s missing it. Life is short so make the best of it and remember – fucking YOLO!

My relationship with death and were I stood! 

Me in 2004-2005 the T-shirt says ”Crush Sionism”

I pray to the Gods that they may grant me a long life, at least until old age will start to diminish the qualities that makes me able to be a man. I don’t wish to be one of those people living in a old-folks home, where nurses have to wipe my ass and feed me oatmeal with a spoon. I guess I have a romantic image of dying peacefully at home surrounded by family and friends, but its more likely I will die alone and suddenly like most people do.

Most people try to avoid thinking about death until its to late. I have always thought about it since I was a kid, that was just one part of my weirdness.  But since then this have been reinforced many times. First when political opponents (at least ten of them armed with steelpipes and bottles) tried to beat me to death in 2005. Then after an allergic reaction in 2010 where I stopped breathing long enough to feel my soul descend into darkness (no white lights). Except for these happenings I had many more skirmishes with death. And in 2014 both my mother and my grandfather died that were the people closest to me in my life.

The importance of death and intentions. 

All these events have made me develop an even closer relationship with death, and an awareness that it can strike at any second for a billion of different reasons. This have instilled in me an urgency to express in actions and words what I wish to contribute to this world before I pass on to the great unknown. That’s what this post is mainly about and to maybe instill some of that urgency unto those of my brothers, family and friends that have not considered the greater implications of their own mortality.

It is said that the road to hell is paved with good intentions, but I will still contest that our intentions are important, especially when it comes to motives. If I were to be judged right now based on my previous life from the beginning of my young adult life and forward I wouldn’t be very proud to represent more than half of it, partly because I have been misguided (like most of us) even if this is not an excuse. But one thing I can say proudly is that I have always searched for the truth even when it have taken me into very uncomfortable places both political and personal.

My resistance, burnout and comeback. 

Already in my teenage years I identified some of the main cultural and spiritual diseases of our time in the Western world and I decided to fight them and their culprits. I did this for more than seven years in politics before I got burned out by pressure from the system by my own failings and being deceived by people I called brothers. I took a timeout and started searching once again for meaning and truth which took me to many strange places and finally to the belly of the beast where i once again discovered the same enemy i saw in my teen years and in its opposite, that is my real identity, context and purpose, which brings me to the main point of this article, that is who i am and what i stand for;

My name is Ernst Robert Almgren which is a Germanic name, it means: Ernst = serious, honest. Robert = The bright, honorable, victorious. Almgren is a local Swedish name.  I am a Swedish, Germanic and European man. I worship the old gods and goddesses – the Aseir and the Vanir. I believe in the tribe and traditional families were the natural genders complement each other. I believe in the organic society organized in guilds, with natural hierarchies and casts were everyone in the tribe or community are not the same but where everyone has a place and a worth in opposite to the egalitarian society were everyone is equally worthless.

My main beliefs. 

I believe that my purpose in life is first and mostly to fight for my tribe and my people, to be a reliable and worthy brother in arms and in life. I believe its my duty to be a role-model for my children, to give them security and wisdom for becoming good and honest members of the tribe. I believe its my duty to be a strong, courageous and a dependable man for my woman as its her duty to honor me and be a loving and caring mother for our children. I believe in the nine noble virtues as expressed in both variations by the Asatru folk assembly and the Odinic rite.

My daughter

I also believe that no matter how far me, my peers, family, my tribe or this whole fucking world descend into degeneracy, perversion and nihilism, I will never believe that its to late and I will continue to stand for the higher values that have guided my people for thousands of years before we started to stray from their path into self-loathing, defeatism and hedonism. So to my children, my brothers, my family and friends – I fight for you, our families and the extension of us, not mostly for what are, but for what we were and what we can become!